Habits

Let's talk about Habits

Except for the ones where I stay high all the time to keep you off my mind

But my holiday habits, the bad ones are kicking in....

It's 12:13 and I just woke up

I feel like shit but I wouldn't stop going back to bed

I'm staying awake for sure this time

I haven't blogged in awhile but then again I barely blog

It's my mums birthday today and me sleeping in means she went out without me so it's the perfect time to clean up the living room and kitchen for her

I have to do the dreaded today

Cleaning the dishes

I fucking hate cleaning the dishes, I hate that chore with a passion

Why can't we get a dish washer?

Oh wells! Life is life! 

I have a few things on and I know I'm going to make my mother mad

25- Today is her birthday so I'm going to do nothing and have dinner with the family

I'll put makeup on her and try to take another nice family Polaroid

26- Tmr I have the ska things and good god small club with Brit, Luke, ect. 

I really hope we leave early since I have work the next day, they promised we would so hopefully they'll keep that promise

27- The next day, as I said I have work and Chet faker! (Habits ;)) we would probs go home straight after since we are going to be tired as shit

28-Day after that, and this is kinda optional but Bens (a VSA guy i met at Yavins house) party, it seems big and more than 100 people are going, so I wanna get super fucked there with huynh, Eeh and I, hopefully more of the kik attend

29-Then after that I have Dikis Party, I'm probably going tidied by then and I hope I can sleep over, I hear it's crazy and I really want to go because it's the last time i will be seeing her

And the 30th, I think it's my parents 20th anniversary? But I'm not sure, I have to get back at my mum

So it's going to be like 5 days of sleeping in getting up and partying and so on

I'm really afraid about work, I am going to die

Not to mention my need to gym!

But whatever it's end of sem

I just have to make sure I don't rub my mum the wrong way during these days

Ok let's talk about the wind

Umm wtf wind can you not? 

Out of all these days I'm excited for the recovery day after everything

Fuck I have to drive as well! The inconvience is high!!!

Umm I finished my exam awhile a go in the library with Ems, Huynh and Drew, it was nice 

Ilets see..

When the blues were playing, instead of getting super drunk and watching the gme, I instead with Collin,  huynh, Ethan and bobs, we got drunk on wine and played the game of thrones board games, but ended up never playing it

A hahahah that was a really fun night

Another fun night was when I went over to Huynhs to play pictionary with of course huynh, Nancy, Cynthia, cole sand Jess

And in teams of 3 cole and I got way too excited about the game

Ahah

I feel like shit tho, I need to stop waking up late! 

I also went shopping with bobs

We so models

OH I TOTALLY FORGOT TO MENTION THAT IM GOING TO MOVE INTO A NEW HOUSE!

My parents bought a new house which is encouraging me to get my Ps

I am super excited, I found out on the day I took the photo above

I remember when I got home my brother was getting a new computer

The energy was high and everyone was excitd

It's a large piece of land and the house is a shit hole but there is so much potential

It was the house I've been waiting for my whole life! 

We can also get a dog~ (if it's free haha)

But golly gosh I am pumped as

“I destroyed my body for a peace of mind I never got.”

—

Unknown

4 am thoughts

I'm jut listening to some bobby brown and I'm all like hey man I wanna rap

Then j was thinking about 

What would I rap about

And then I was like what am I passionate about?

And then I was like education

Then I thought about my parents and their struggle 

And then I thought about the boat people

And then I was like

IM GOING TO WRITE A RAP ABOUT THW BOAT PEOPLE AND CALL IT THE ABBOTT PROOF FENCE OMG

 Goodnight 

throw back

gggggggggggggggggggggggg

tryin to suck me into a gay vortex but i refuse

“Poetry is an echo, asking a shadow to dance.”

—	Carl Sandburg

Little Bitch

I feel very depressed

my inability to get up and do shit is really bothering me :(
i feel stressed and i dont know why

stressed, depressed but well dressed aye?

my family and i are currently good

but its because i havent gone out in a long ass time because everyone is in exams

today i asked ethan to drive me to RTA and being the good friend he is, he did!
we went to go pick up huynh after and it was just like old times

e at the wheel, huynh in the back seat, right in the middle and me shot gunned and we are all laughing about god knows why

today huynh kept reciting game of thrones

i finally realised that it meant they were all fighting for the throne hahaha took me a while

anyway i have work tomorrow

and im wondering why i am up at 2am

i am so not bothered

for anything really

i need to study tho

i need to get my last assignment over and done with

i can do it, i know i can

i am going to go to uni on sunday

and probably cabra library on saturday?

at work i am going to write a to do list i swear

i recently changed my theme for my tumblr

i really love it

http://thugsondrugs.tumblr.com/

have a look!

i really miss summer dresses

i dont really know where i am going with this post, all i know it that i want to get shit faced and not care so much about growing up for a bit

i need to get my P plates ugh

my room is a fucking mess

i want to kill myself

i want it to just be clean

i want my work to be done i want everything to be ok

i want to be pretty

i want to wear summer dresses

i want the sun burning my flesh

i want goosebumps in the shade

i think i should change up my room over the holidays

ok i should probably go to bed

just to let you know i have a shit load of blog posts just like this

they usually end up in drafts cause they go nowhere

i just wanted to tell you

haha

man this blog post is shit

i love you guys

and i bought a cactus

 i also wanted to add more things to my list

• cut hair
• learn how to curl hair
• change room up
• get my p's
• write in my diary more
• clear out my laptop and use my imac more
• buy various cushions
• make my bed cover (probs with my mum)
• get new curtains
• (i just really want a new room)
• do something with my dad, i dont know what, maybe make something? a table? help re-design the living room? we just need to bond. 

“I miss how you wanted me.”

—	six word story, #18

Desire

• clean room
• read the rest of 1984
• read the picture of dorain gray
• read a clockwork in orange
• read a spy in the house of love
• have a lock in where all i do is paint for 3 days (visitors allowed but no going out, perfect time if broke!)
• Craft day with jess (cutting our shirts and customising second hand dresses)
• sign up for amnesty international
• design a shirt for amnesty international
• go chet faker
• go splendour!!
• get a piercing (nose or extra ears)
• party
• get really really raelly really unblieveably durnnkk
• have a sleepover at brits
• stay a carlas house and roam the forrest around her house drunk
• drive drive drive
• empty our closet (donate or sell?)
• open an ebay account
• gym everyday!
• drink more water
• use up all film in new kodak camera
• go bar hoping at
• frankies pizza
• palmer & co
• Grandma's bar
• (keep in mind i dont know here these places are)
• baxter inn
• stitch bar
• go to at least 3 vinyl stores with eeh
• go clubbing at least twice
• watch game of thrones
• watch breaking bad

thats all i can think of right now

trapped in a rotting body on a dying planet in a mysterious dimension controlled by an unknown force

if you could keep only one memory what would it be?

i was maria, mai was mai and catrina was sharmane

i look behind and she was on the floor

the laughing starts and carries on until the next scene

we all try to muffle it

but no, no, no

Can't Stop

before i get to bed

A few days go called up yavin and yelled

"WHAT IS THIS SONG ITS BY THE RED HOT CHILLI PEPPERS"

i started making abstract drum noises and a poorly hummed riff

i paused and he paused

he bursted out laughing and muttered "Can't Stop?"

he was correct and i went to the library with him

her promised to buy me hentai when he went to japan

and i taught him how to draw over skype

thats when i realised my technique

fat and bone

all i draw is fat and bone

ive been wanting to make this blog for a while but i just didnt feel like it until i guess now!

i should really be getting to bed im going to uni tmrw to study!

my printer stopped working

how annoying

anyways

ages ago i went to the shady pines saloon 

it was so lovely, i loved the atmosphere and i got to spend my night drinking beer, talking about politics and eating peanuts. Exactly what i wanted from my university experience. 

A while ago i went to vivid lights and the markets were on at that time, it was a really eventful night, i had a blast tho, here is my insta worthy picture,
obviously

ok so recently i went to soda factory after a day of studying at uni

we walked past this i and i couldnt stop laughing

im sorry i am still 5

THE 90's PARTY

  

So i went to the 90's party with my family friend Andrew. We didn't get along much when we grew up together because my mum was always comparing his family to mine. A bit later in the years we started to get along because we both liked to make fun of people. I'm sorry but being mean is fun sometimes. I developed a crush on him and yeah, turns out he is bi more on the gay side. I have to exaggerate to the max i am not attracted to him now and would never date him. He is too vain, in a good way. I'm really glad we get along. He is like a taller version and more cambodian version of collin.

We met with his friend, we all happened to be wearing converse, black haha.

I met Diki and Brit there. I had a super blast. I was significantly drunk when i got there but was so sober by the end of the night it was upsetting. Diki went as crazy spice and the more i think about her the more i get sad because i wont be able to see her after around the middle of next month. I really got along with her and she understood my views on promiscuity. She also was a feminist like me and we both sat on the uni lawn with a cup of coffee talking about everything. By everything mainly sex hahaha. I am going to miss her so so sooooooo much i am so fucking glad she stared at me the second i got into my theatre tutor. I was overwhelmed with joy knowing she was in another one of my classes!

Brit, i miss her, i want her to be in my yaer so we could have every class together!! i spent most of the night with her. I really love our friendship blooming!! I rally hope shes a friend for life. I bet she will be. When we were dancing and love shack went on i went crazy. That song is very intimate to me, I don't know why but it gave me crazy nostalgia.  

Even newer news i joined the GYM! i know crazy! Its going well and my body hurts all the time, no pain no gain right?

This shot will be my before shot. I cant for the after. I want slimmer thighs, dont get me wrong i love my body, but why not improve it even more? that way i can be out of everyones league ;)

my wishlist keeps building its getting annoying 

but i cant help it

dammit american apparel

I NEED THESE SKIRTS

 [x] 

 [x]

sighh i have the money
just not the mum hahah

im getting pressured more to start taking a hold of my money and i really do not want to because i know that i'l just constantly spend it on those skirts and those rings i wanted

this is currently my favourite artwork right now, i mean its so surreal and beautiful and you just really connect to it. I feel like its a link to all my fantasies blurred into an on going action you have to take a step back and just breathe for a second. i would to anything to paint like this.

sadly with water colour you cant really paint this surreal

i mean look at it, i didnt even notice the spectrums of blue

the more i find art and look at it i mean

i try to take steps back from this artwork and just try to learn and expand until i paint the one

good night

i hope i do well

OH WAIT I  LIED

THIS IS MY FAVOURITE ARTWORK OF ALL TIME

oh and can someone remind me to paint this in the near future [x]

“How can emptiness be so heavy?”

—	Six Word Story

get back to work

because i suck

im procrastinating like crazy

i really need to start my assignment

well i have already started i just need to write it

i keep telling myself its only 1000 words

get your ass up maria

i cant stop thinking about tomorrow

the fact i finished another assignment i have 2 more to carry

which sounds so good right now

but the second i get home from uni i am going straight to me room

• watch ferris buellers day off again
• have a manicure 
• take a long nap
• finally clean my room
• read loaded

when i got home from uni, 11 hours at uni straight i might add, came home 

had the hottest shower off my life and by far the best

and sat around doing nothing

its time my friends

i start my work

i will be back!!


remember this maria <http://pastebin.com/raw.php?i=KYKEgQrV>


“But jesus fuck I’d swallow poison if it tasted like you.”