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i cant find my keys

i keep losing my keys lets photo bomb for a sec tho

on our way to the beach house my black son is lookin hawt killin all da babes liek pew pew

when we first hit the beach andrew and i went for a walk and we walked by this beauty, he wanted to show me a cliff, i dont know if you can see but there is this green patch in the water and it looks like a mini underwater garden it was beaut man i miss my glasses i cant see shit i want to cry all the time

further proof my walk was fun, i made andrew put a flower in his hair and pose like a greek goddess, so beautiful 

flowerz flowerz pretty pretty flowerz

WE DISCOVERED A VERY LOVELY LOOK OUT, DISCOVERYYYYYYYYY 

the waves were sooo great and beautiful and it was hot and looking back now beach house was soooo lovely

panny danny no rammy ram mama (panorama)

next day we went out to the local shops

we drank HARDCORE TEA

ahhahahha

ahhaahha

yummy

kiss my ketut

and then i made andrew wear my bandana and he ended up looking like a japanese sushi chef or loser gangster 

after beach house we went to go visit trinh at tk something such shit service!!!

this is the photo for it, but the awk edition

a few days  ago i went flip out

it was flipping tiring

sues operation didnt kill her so that was good! went to visit her, she so pale

brits room, so flashy! my dream room tbh!

that brit

she so pretty

we had a fashion shoot

i love her house! it had lovely brick walls and a great number of rooms! a bath tub and i lush look out!! it was all pink and had butterflies and cute nick nacks.

i loved the little thing in her house

the crazy mugs and the random spoons which were gold and nothing was really in order

i loved the basement the most and the  excessive amounts of mirrors!

i loved how brittney drives with no shoes and walks around the shops with no shoes on

i loved how every second person she saw in coles they all smiled at her and was like "BRITTNEY!!"

i love her millions of medals she got from dancing

i loved how i never knew she danced!!!

i love how she asked for my address because she wants to send me mail!

i want she and i to be pen pals itll be so great!!

i hope she doesnt read this or else itll sound obsessive hahah

shes a real hippie and so is her mum its so cute

talking about

eeh really made my day

hes getting me real excited for this year

i really am

i have to make it better for myself

i need money and i need a better bookself

i need to get rid of things too

lets get my shit together this year

i cant wait to show you my photos

i cant wait to tell you about my year! im so pumped

'I never painted dreams. I paint my own reality.' -frida kharlo

It's the 16th of February. It's a Sunday.

9:24 and it's raining

My shoulders hurt from rock climbing yesterday and I had to walk to the station

I don't mind

I left 20 min before my train came and I was 9 min early including my minute to buy water.

At first I wanted to buy ice coffee because I made coffee this morning before I realised that we didn't have milk

I tried drinking it black

It was disgusting. 

But once I was a few seconds away from the store I changed my mind to ice tea because I've been craving it for some reason

Then once I was in the store staring at the different choices I had to make I could hear stupid Andrews voice telling me to get water "always choose water always choose water" 

So I rolled my eyes and got water instead

The woman who took my dollar for my beverage wasn't the average woman 

This girl was new the guy beside her gave me a smile because I'm a regular 

I smiled back

I walked to the station and got myself a ticket, and smiled at the busker. He recognises me now 

Which is nice I guess

I never give him. Money tho

Hahha tbh he's not that good. 

It is 9:31 and I'm ok the train

I saw this woman

I see her all the time

She gets off at merrylands

It wonder if she began to notice me

Probably

I like the rain on the train window

I'm so excited for lunch because last night I made a steak with corn and beans and Carrots and mash and I made a lovely mushroom sauce. 

For breakfast I had a wrap my mums workplace make

It's good

Cold tho cause its been in the fridge

The train is cold

Thank god I brought my cardigan!

9:41

The man behind me is phlegmy. It's really bothering cause he keeps making these annoying noises omfg! HE'S RIGHT BEHIND ME

It's the 17th of February. Its a Monday.

its my day off and its 1:20 in the morning

whilst climbing up the stairs i remembered about this post i didnt finish

i made myself tea

but with so milk my mum bought today

i went downstairs and made sure that i checked the fridge

what convinced me to use soymilk was "if vegans can drink this so can i"

i havent tasted it yet

im tired and my stomach hurts

the lunch i was so excited to eat was poison

in the last few minutes of work i started to feel sick

robin picked me up from b2 and while i was heading back to the main store i grabbed the bathroom keys and vomited

it was pretty gosh darn bad

and painful

i am going to go to sleep now

im sorry i forgot about you

OH! i really liked jesses post, it was so lovely

“I’m trying to love people because they exist 
and not because of what they can do for me.”

—	Emery Allen

It's the 13th of February 2014. It's a Thursday.

It's 8:21 in the morning and I'm on the station ready for work

It's hot and I'm sweating

Whilst waiting for the elevator I stood next to an old man and he let me in the elevator first! 

What a gentleman! That made my morning

Transit officers all up in my grill but I don't mind

It's not like in doing anything wrong

I'm kinda self conscious again about my mark because I decided not to wear make up today

I'm in a really excited mood today, I don't know why

It might be a good day!

But the problem is I have news to piss off my parents, I don't know how to go about that...

Behind me is a Cambodian woman on the phone hahah, we always sound angry on the phone because we speak with such a bitchy flare and passion

I can see school girls. I miss school. The closeness of everyone. 

It's 8:26 and I'm on the train and canley vale station has a ramp thing. I smell a pork roll. 

9:24

Work has begun and I am slightly awake, thank god for tea aye? 

In a sec I am going to put my phone in back room to play music

I can't stop listening to white lies by max frost hahha it's a really good song, very funky

I can hear the song titanium

We are selling manga 10 for $20 again there is this series called vagabond which my friend told me about

I'm thinkin of getting it for him, I texted him about it

If he doesn't want it I might get it for my brothers

The store (B2, my pop up store where I work alone) is completely empty

Erin is relieving me tho so I'm excited

I'm working 2 shifts next week

There is nothing to do here

It's gonna be a Long day and I'm already falling asleep. 

Lets clean this place up! 

It's 12:11 50 more min till break and I'm starving 

Still nothing to do. 

1:55 finished lunch a while ago, I have stickering now and a bloated belly

I regret buying maccas for lunch

I always do

Anyways, time to play my music

Florence is playing in the background of Westies. Very faint. I'm stickering hsc books. Good times. 

She never looked nice. She looked like art, and art wasn't supposed to look nice; it was supposed to make you feel something.-Eleanor & Park, Rainbow Rowell

What am I going to do today?

I came home to a messy room

I left it that way because my family is nosy and I have things to hide

But then again don't we all?

I also came home to a happy family 

I accidentally told them I was coming a day later

We went to eat out at a local rsl club

I felt a bit emotional seeing my brother I don't know why. I almost cried. 

My other brother is losing weight! I'm so proud of him! My 2 cousins were also overweight and one of them told me that my brother was going to gain an eating disorder just like she and her brother did. 

That broke my heart what she said and I'm so glad that it hasn't happened, sure he's eating less but he's gyming and doing it the right was which makes me proud. 

He is also coming out of his shell with me, that silent blob of a middle child is beginning to mumble "Maria...." More often   which is nice. 

I think they missed me while I was away. 

I woke up a bit sad and to really slow Internet! I woke up at 8 but went back to sleep, If I knew my mum was home I would've stayed up at 8 to do something with her! But I guess she felt like I needed a rest.

I was talking to Brit last night, I miss her, she and I were talking about a project we wanna do involving minimal photography and just me as a model. She told me she doesn't know many people who like that kinda thing. Dw. Me too. It's nice meeting people who share your interest

i dont know what to do today.

i have work tmr 

i think im going to shower

actually get stuff unpacked and then read

yes

that is what ill do

i like people who make boring things fun i like thinking "i know itll be fun if youre there"

i want this fuckking mark to go away

alcohol taste better than you anyway

Im so afraid of the future that I cried

Then someone told me nows not the time to be thinking of the future. 

It made me feel much better.